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Gorgonzola Pecan Yogurt Dip


-16 oz of plain, fat-free greek yogurt

-2/3 cup of gorgonzola cheese crumbles

-1/4 cup of chopped pecans

-1-2 cloves of garlic (optional)

-salt to taste


Place all ingredients in a food processor. Mix until well blended. Taste and make any adjustments that you’d like. Place mixture in a bowl and refrigerate over night (or at least a few hours) to let the flavor set in. Serve as a dip for vegetables, chips, crackers, or whatever you would like. This would also be good as a spread on a bagel or sandwich.


This is my first time ever sharing a recipe. So I hope you guys like it. This dip/spread tastes really rich and decadent. I have been making this for years and always measure just by eyeballing, so these measurements are all approximate. I like using greek yogurt because it is so high in protein, but it comes out really thick (as you can see in the picture below). If you want more of a traditional dip texture, you can use regular plain yogurt. I usually make this with a clove or two or garlic, but skipped it this time because I was all out. Still tastes delicious.

Also, I tagged this as an appetizer, but the serving sizes are pretty generous. I had this for lunch today with a bell pepper and some cauliflower florets.

Nutritional Information:

(based on 8 generous servings)

Calories 107.5
  Total Fat 6.4 g
  Saturated Fat 2.7 g
  Polyunsaturated Fat 0.8 g
  Monounsaturated Fat 1.5 g
  Cholesterol 12.5 mg
  Sodium 188.0 mg
  Potassium 16.7 mg
  Total Carbohydrate 3.6 g
  Dietary Fiber 0.6 g
  Sugars 2.4 g
  Protein 9.0 g
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Tuesday Weigh-in 9/25/12

This morning I had a pleasant surprise when I stepped on the scale. I weigh 257 pounds, 4.2 pounds less than last Tuesday, and 6.2 less than a few weeks ago. Was not expecting such a big loss in one week!

This weigh-in gave me a burst of motivation. I’m back to recording all the food I eat in MyFitnessPal.


Monday Update

Thus far, I’ve been doing great at abstaining from sugar, wheat, and fried foods. Also, I’ve been pretty good about exercising everyday. However, I haven’t written down my food since Friday. I don’t know why I’m so resistant to keeping track of my calories. It is such a small thing that I know will help me so much in both the short and long term.

It not just about being physically healthy either, I want to eat mindfully. I want to taste every delicious bite I eat, savor the different flavors and textures. I want to be present in those moments as I take care of and nourish my body. I don’t just want to be a zombie in front of the tv, eating things I can’t even taste and will have no memory of later.

The biggest challenge I’ve had the past few days is figuring out how to sooth myself without using food or other substances. I had a conflict with a friend the other day, and  automatically reached for a jar of peanut butter. Oh, and a fun side-note about that jar of peanut butter: I finished it yesterday, then realized today it had been recalled by Trader Joes due to fears that it may have been infected with Salmonella. If I had Salmonella poisoning I’d know it by now, right?

The biggest victory I’ve had is turning down free food. I used to think that free food didn’t count. One day at work last week there were doughnuts (a double no due to the fact that they are both made of wheat and fried) in the break room. Doughnuts always make my stomach hurt and I would never go and buy a doughnut for my self, but they are so hard to turn down when they are free. Another day at work there was some kind of cake (it honestly didn’t look that great, but that never stopped me before when it was free). On Saturday I went to a party. There were these little mini artisan sandwiches, cookies, brownies, and many other delicious-looking baked goods. Baked goods are like crack to me, especially the expensive looking ones. I stayed away from these things and stuck the the fruits, nuts, and cheeses.

Physically I feel so much better since I have put down the sugar and the wheat. I can’t even pinpoint how, exactly. It’s almost as if I feel less foggy.

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Day 3


Today is the third day following my plan for better health. I have been abstaining from food that triggers my drive to overeat: sugar, anything containing wheat, and anything fried. I have also been recording all my food and exercise on a free phone app I have called MyFitnessPal. The third thing I’ve been doing is making sure to get at least 20 minutes of cardio exercise everyday.

So far the hardest thing to do has been recording all my calories. Part of me wants to eat mindlessly, shoving food (even healthy food) into my mouth without a thought. About six months ago I did a cleanse. For two weeks, I only ate organic fruits, vegetables, nuts, quinoa, and brown rice. I also took supplements. I wasn’t doing the cleanse to drop weight, but I thought it might be a pleasant side effect. At the end of the cleanse, though, I hadn’t lost one pound. Even though I was on a highly restrictive diet, I still managed to overeat. Unless I keep track of everything I stick in my mouth, I tend to be in denial about how much I’m actually eating.

Physically I feel pretty good, but have been kind of low on energy. Perhaps this is due to sugar withdrawal? Mentally, I’m feeling good. Even though it’s been just three days, I’m proud of sticking to the plan.


Downward Dog

I was going to title this post “Before Picture,” but then thought that was silly, since it is actually a “Now Picture.” Then I got into this whole internal philosophical debate about weather it is better to live in the moment or to visualize my future success. Anyway, I decided just to title this post “Downward Dog,” because that’s the yoga pose I am doing in the photo.

I was thinking of posting regular full body shots, but those kind of “before” pictures can tend to be kind of depressing. So instead of giving you a “hey look at my fat, miserable ass,” pic I decided to have a friend take a yoga pic of me.

The pose I am doing in this picture is called downward dog. It is a rest pose, but when I first started practicing yoga a few years back it didn’t feel restful at all. My heels were nowhere close to touching the ground, I could barely straighten my legs, and my wrists would end up killing me, because I would dump all my weight into them. I listened to my body and worked with it. I modified the pose to fit my body instead of trying to push and punish my body to get it to do something it wasn’t able to. Now I love downward dog. I crave it at the end of a long day. It is a great stretch for the legs and the back and it feels amazing.

So this is what a chick who is roughly 260 pounds looks like doing yoga.

If you notice the people in the background, you can tell that I am the largest person in the class. A few years ago I would have used that observation to beat myself up, to tell myself that I didn’t belong there. Now days thoughts like that rarely enter my mind. I am grateful for my body and everything it can do. I love my body regardless of its size.


I Lost 2 Pounds!

Of course this was after I gained 3.2 pounds, so maybe I should be more measured with my self congratulatory tone. The way I’ve been eating the last few weeks, though, it really is a miracle I have only gained 1.2 pounds. Maybe those lypotropic injections are actually doing something.

Since I last posted I’ve been under a lot of stress and have been overeating. I’ve decided that for the time being I need to completely cut out sugar, sugar substitutes, and wheat products from my diet, because those are foods that I have a harder time controlling myself around. Also, fried foods. I really don’t eat many fried foods, but when it comes to chips and salsa or french fries, one is too many and a thousand is never enough (to borrow a phrase from Alcoholics Anonymous).

In addition to abstaining from those foods, I am going to be writing down everything I eat and trying to do at least 20 minutes of cardio every day. My plan is to burn more calories that I consume. Sounds sensible enough, right?

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Lipotropic Injections

Last week I went to this “weight loss center” (I’ll get to why it’s in quotes in a second) by my house that I found by googling “lipotropic injections.” Lately I’ve been hearing a lot about these injections. They are a blend of vitamins B12, B6 and some nutrients that are supposed to burn fat, by helping the liver  process fat.

I’ve gotten vitamin B12/B6 injections before, and can definitely attest to the energy boost they give. I am a vegetarian and it’s harder to get B vitamins without eating meat. I couldn’t find any information online about the side effects of adding lipotropic agents to the shots, so I decided to go for it.

The place I went to was pretty shady, though. First of all, I had to make an appointment two weeks in advance because they said I needed a doctor’s consultation. Fair enough I thought. Except when I finally went in for the appointment, my consultation wasn’t with a doctor, it was with a physician’s assistant. And all she tried to do was up-sell me.

They didn’t take my blood pressure or even weigh me. They just tried to sell me shit, then had me pull down my pants so they could give me a shot in the butt.

I wasn’t expecting much from the place, because their Yelp reviews weren’t great, but the price was right (4 lipotropic injections for $100).

That was a week ago, though, and I have felt absolutely no effect. When I got the vitamin B12/B6 shot by itself I felt a noticeable uptake in energy. Also when I got the straight vitamin injections, the vitamin B6 kind of stings and then hurts for a couple of hours, but I felt nothing like that from this injection. Rereading the bad yelp reviews, I’m wondering if these injections were watered down.

Has anyone ever used lipotropic injections? I’d be curious to hear some of your stories.

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A Different Kind of Weight Loss Blog

This morning I weighed myself. At 5’5, I weigh 260 pounds. My BMI is 43.3, which is considered “morbidly obese” (man, do I hate that term, but more on that at a later date). This is the part where a lot of weight loss bloggers might say something like, “I’m so digested with myself,” or “I can’t believe I got to this point.” But, this isn’t that kind of blog.

A person’s weight is just a number and, perhaps, a marker of his or her health, but that’s it. At 260 pounds, I am just as rad as I would be at 200, 160, or 120 pounds.

Contrary to what the stereotype of a “morbidly obese” person is, I am a healthy person (just got my blood work done, everything is excellent). I am also an active person. I have a regular yoga practice, can do the splits, and enjoy all types of exercise. Another thing that doesn’t fit the stereotype of “morbidly obese” is that I am a vegetarian and have been for most of my life. I love fruits and vegetables and rarely eat fast food.

So if I am so fabulous already, why am I starting a weight loss blog? Well, for many reasons.

First of all, I want to live a long time. Although I am in great health today, when I look around I don’t see a lot of fat 80 year olds.

Secondly, I love yoga and I love to exercise, but there are a lot of things I can’t do at this weight. For example, I can’t do most inversions and I can’t run for 30 minutes straight. These are two things I’d like to be able to do.

Thirdly, I’d like to be able to shop in the “regular stores.” I am a cute, fashionable chick and I love clothes, but I wear a size 18 pants (20 in jeans) and I hate that I am limited only to a few stores and brands.

And last but not least, I want to be comfortable in tight spaces. Fortunately I can still fit my ass into an airplane seat, but every time I fly I live in fear that they’ll have made the seats just a little bit smaller (or that my ass has grown just a little bit bigger) and I’ll be asked to buy two seats or suffer some other indignity. And every time I go into a restaurant where the tables are close together I worry that my big ass is going to knock over a glass at the table next to me when I am getting in and out.

For those reasons, I’d like to lose weight. I don’t just want to lose weight, though, I want to keep it off. So I’m not going to be doing anything extreme. I will eat less and exercise more. I’m going to focus on loving myself and taking good care of myself, I’m not going to focus on value judgements about fat versus thin.